Is anecdotal a word because if it is, that is what best describes my blog so far. A bunch of different stories, most to make you smile and know a little bit more than you did before about what's happening in my life.

Sometimes though, sometimes I wish I could share my life here with you like I do with Zoe. That I could blurt out everything I see, feel, think, experience, imagine, dream and ponder. That I could do so purely, without sensor or fear. Is anyone able to do this?

I mentioned the desire to a friend before I left and she said it probably wasn't the best idea. That maybe some things should be kept to ones self. I don't know if this is good advice. I understand that it's natural to share more of your heart with people you trust. I would usually share more with my best friend than with a stranger; but as my list of life experiences become longer, I've realized that it's just as safe to share with stangers. I met people all the time while I lived in Spain and it always seemed like when I showed my courage (by being frank, open and personal to a new acquaintance) that opened the door for them to respond in the same way. Most of my best conversations happened because I didn't try to make myself seem any better than I was by hiding things that I thought people would judge me about.

I haven't been hurt. I haven't shared something personal and it come back to bite me. I've never been blackmailed or seriously embarrassed or reprimanded or denied a job or had any negative reprocussions from laying my life out as an open book. Maybe that makes me innocent...maybe it makes me invincible.

I think I can attribute this invincibility (of appearance there of) to my loving community. I believe in their love so deeply that I don't believe anything I say or do will make it end. And if anything I say or do does make their love for me falter, then it wasn't real love. Maybe I don't want fake love anyways. Can I handle the fires of human judgement and share every part of my existence with anyone who happens to be interested? Hmmm, I don't know that I know yet...